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There’s so many good things in my life, but in the hustle and bustle of things I completely forget about them. For example, I don’t ever think about how truly grateful I am to have my partner in life, my soulmate, my everything. We have been through so much and sometimes I forget about how much he really means to me.
Another thing is, through out my life I have always felt misplaced, like I didn’t belong anywhere or to anyone. This could have been because of the absence of my father in my life or just my not so great childhood. Honestly I’m not really sure. Just recently all of that changed. Last year around this time I met my father for the very first time. It was awkward for me and I wanted to punch him but the moment I saw him I couldn’t do anything but stop and stare. He did not hesitate with his tearful eyes he wrapped me in his arms and held me. I just fell apart. This man I wanted so badly to hate had made it impossible. For the first time in my life I got to feel the love of a father. It’s been almost a year now but how could I over look that moment in my life just because something doesn’t go right?
Finally, my older brother and I never grew up together. We knew of each other but never talked or had the relationship like a normal brother and sister would. A couple of months before my graduation he sent me a friend request on facebook, and the following day he told me that he was sorry for not being there for me and he was with me from this day on. He promised to be at my graduation and he was! We have been inseparable since then. It meant the whole world to me to look in the stands and see my mom, brother, and my aunt being there for me. It was the first time in a long time we had all been in the same room, I could have cared less about a diploma, my family was there and that was all that mattered to me.
All of these recent changes in my life have been the greatest experiences, and when I get stressed out all I think about is the negative things that have happened to me rather than the great things I just mentioned. I completely forget about how blessed I am all because I let negativity blind me from the blessing I receive every day! What a shame….. It needs to change.
Honestly, my potential is way to high to be working at sonic drive thru. I’m 20 years old and I think it’s time I get started on my career….. This living pay check to pay check is tiring and it’s really not worth it when you deal with hateful angry misunderstanding customers all day long! Im better than this it’s time I get off my ass and get my career started…. Sonic just ain’t cuttin it no more I want something bigger than this! And I’m going to make it happen. I’m done with dreaming it’s time to make my dreams a reality.